The loveliest gift
27/12/2011 Leave a comment
When it seemed almost impossible to approach a member of the opposite sex, for example, and even dare to strike up a conversation or make an appearance known, getting to know somebody and to perhaps develop a friendship into something a little deeper seemed ridiculous.
Having felt a little more confident over the last few years though and having moved to a stage where thoughts can be misinterpreted, those moments of fear and trepidation about approaching somebody do not seem too bad after all!
Writing about love through romantic relationships, friendships and family bonds may seemingly be becoming a bit of a trend over the last few posts that have been published on My Autistic Life but as a part of living which seems so attractive, sustaining a balance between each form of emotional stranglehold can be tough and of course, not everybody is lucky to feel each type at any given time.
With this being the case, a sense of gratitude should be felt for what is already secured in the world hey?
As Christmas is just passing through, such thoughts are true and happy smiling faces are only making this feel ever stronger.
However, there is a heart that relentlessly yearns for more.
By removing the love within a family environment which can act as a springboard for the development of trust and closeness, maintaining a friendship can be one of the purest examples of a relationship as there is no immediate link between two people.
Usually, acquiring an acquaintance in this way can bring enough happiness to keep a likeness strong but should feelings grow, the entire reason of being a friend can quickly become an entirely different one.
Mutually, this process of thought and physical contact is perfectly acceptable but when things are a little more exclusive, life isn’t so great.
The latter scenario is more prevalent than the former on a personal level.
Already eluding to a change in confidence, positive effects are shining through as recently, conversation was struck up with a fellow traveler on a coach journey from university to the family home for the festive holidays and to be perfectly honest, this is a step which means an awful lot.
There were jokes and laughter and to be honest, it was brilliant.
From feeling proud of this though, a wholly confusing example of misunderstanding advances have happened over the last few days.
Thinking that a newly-found friend, a person who shall remain nameless out of courtesy, was looking for a little more than just a buddy on Christmas Eve, any illusions were quickly dispelled on Christmas Day as confusion quickly became confirmed.
Confidence caused this situation, however!
Out of yet another experience learned, positives have come from a happy set of encounters.
Friends are said to be there for you when romance fails, is simply missing or when events take a bad turn in any way but from time to time, relationships can drift away or suddenly fall apart for no apparent reason.
Others may not be as obvious or ongoing but instead, may stretch over an extremely long period of time as love and a common feeling can be felt but at the same time, doesn’t demand a constant togetherness to remain intact.
Receiving text messages and tweets in the wishing of comfort and joy during Christmas and 2012 as a new year, something which holds a great deal of further excitement for reasons that will be shared in the near future, may be a slightly cynical way of deciding who can currently be regarded in a higher stature than others as friends but really, it seems a pretty good benchmark for it.
Some people, again remaining nameless, have got in touch at length and have provided a great deal of fun conversation as a rarity or regular occurance but also, those who are considered to be closer have remained quieter.
Picking and choosing the value of love isn’t fair at all but if honesty is really the best policy, some lovely ladies and gentlemen have gone up a fair amount in estimation lately and that is highly appreciated.